I had a friend tell me recently, "the person you are right now, is who you are, and you are beautiful". Even with every flaw I feel is so obvious and every problem I think I need to fix within myself, right now, I am who I am, and I have to accept that. Maybe that sounds ridiculous.
People are so easily placed into categories, they are defined, they are labeled. Like items of purchase they allow themselves to be objectified.
I have trouble with fitting into a category and in fact, hate living within a box. Giving myself a definition would be a cage for me. I have never been that "smart girl", or that "pretty girl", or that "nerdy girl". Maybe in other peoples minds I fit a specific category, but to me I'm just Allie. It sickens me how much worth we give people based on where they fit in or who they fit in with. I am not saying that I have never labeled someone or "judged a book by it's cover". In fact, I'm probably the worst at getting to know people before making an opinion up about them. I have opinions about people instantaneously and love when my pre-conceived notions are shattered.
Life should be lived with openness, having firm beliefs, but allowing change when necessary. The soul longs to be free and vulnerable. It is fear that hinders the souls expression and pride that chokes the vulnerability. There is no need to be defined by someone else's terms.
Conforming is easy but oh so boring.
I have a category for you. But unfortunately it can not be described in one word. Ready, here it is: Creative, outside thinker, overwhelmingly entertaining, funny, clever, supportive (SERIOUSLY), deep thinker -or - what you would call an "old soul," mindful, respectful, caring, joyful, easy going, spontaneous (crazy at times), hopeful, realistic, inventive, energized, sometimes exhausting, spunky, honest, beautiful, charming, divine (my favorite), and that's just the stuff off the top of my head.
ReplyDeleteIn my opinion you are the last person to conform, you love that your individuality makes others a little uncomfortable... and I would dare to say that sometimes I wish I was more like you. I have never met someone with such courage and strength and well...it's not something you see very often.
And if you need a category of identity, when someone asks, just tell them your my best friend...nuf said.