I have exactly three Posts that are displayed on this blog right now, and about nine other's that I haven't finished. Tonight I'm just not able to sleep and writing seems to be one of the only ways to let go of everything I'm holding onto so tightly. Insecurity is a scary and all to normal of a trait the people in my generation posses. I pay a lot of attention to the way my friends feel about life, about themselves, and others. We constantly compare and critcize people around us. Of course this is not something to be surprised by. In fact, we have basically been brain-washed into a method of thinking based on scores, records, and scales.

As a girl, I live in a society that is bombarded with faulty answers to question's that are buried deep within a woman's soul.

"Who will love me?"

"How can I be more loveable?"

"Am I beautiful?"

Girls ache for love and acceptance and if they are empty of these neccessities, they will fill themselves with the best nurishment available. Everything we see on television, and through the media gives us answers to these questions, but are virtually dead-ends. Before I logged into my Blogger profile, an advertisement popped up that claimed it could explain, "How to Snag a Man and Keep Him". I don't mean to beat a dead horse, but honestly how long are we going to put up with this crap? Superficial answers to some of the deepest questions found in our hearts. We have been absolutely brain-washed, and desensitized by lies, and false realities. I'm aware that we have all heard the term, "It's what's on the inside that counts." But how many of us have actually believed that? How could we when our entire world is crashing down because we were made fun of in school for being over-weight, having acne, a crooked nose, wearing the same outfit twice in a week, and so many other so-called "flaws" that those little kids on the playground taunted us with. Commercials, TV shows, movies, and other forms of media reveal our insignificance every minute that we watch. How could we possibly believe that we are attractive, important, valuable, when the world screams at us, "NO! If you just had this..."

I think this subject is brought up a lot, but not enough. The lies being pumped into our skulls come no where near the amount of truth that needs to be heard. There is no balance between the negative and positive information we hear today. I'm done listening, it's time to talk back, maybe even shout back. Time to throw a fist in the air, marching forward, without fear towards insecurity, self-hate, and inadequecy. I will not put up with the filth they try to set before me as a banquet that looks good to the eyes, but destroys me on the inside. No longer will I stand for believing that I need to look a certain way, have a particular style, or date the perfect guy to be complete.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. It's so simple a statement, but so overlooked and needs to become apart of our self understanding. I know for myself that right now is a time of unfolding the lies I have believed about who I am. Jesus is gently peeling off the layers of discontent and self-hate. With the love of Jesus, I am empowered. I do not have a secret recipe, or specific steps to take that will lead you to completely accept yourself.  Re-learning what has been learned for so long is a time consuming process, but a process that is vital to living a life full of love youself and others.  There is freedom from the bondage of our chains in Jesus name. I believe that with all my heart.

I have many more thought on this subject, and there will be more. But for now the beggining of any journey to inner healing begins with one man, one death, and one life...